About Chris

I’m a 40 something man, a husband, a dad, a grandpa, a Soldier, a son, and most importantly to me, I’m a Christian and a missionary.

This is what I am committed to:

  1. Staying faithful to God’s plans for my life
  2. Working Hard on my concept of Strong Mind, Strong Body
  3. Staying in my marriage and thriving together
  4. Helping my family to continue to see God’s purpose in my life and theirs

These are what I have been committed to since I gave my life to the Lord on December 31, 2000. The problem is I am having a hard time staying the course with them all. I am having a hard time knowing the old Chris who was confident in all these convictions.

I was diagnosed with Major Depression in 2012 that has lingered, and lingered and lingered. This doesn’t define me but, as it turns out, it’s a bigger deal than I thought. I thought I could shake it (I know some of you mental health veterans had to pause here to laugh uncontrollably at the thought I could just shake clinical depression). Now I’m trying to find the old guy again, or reinvent a new one.

Maybe the best advice I’ve gotten is to be patient and wait for the new and improved Chris to emerge!

The “Looking for Chris” blog has purpose. The purpose is primarily to help ME get clarity, to allow ME to see progress (or the lack thereof), and yes to exercise my mind and creativity through writing. Sometimes this means documenting my boring day. Sometimes its an update on a bigger life event. And sometimes, I’m just humoring myself because I think I’m funny.

Life is about relationship: with God, with others, and with ourselves. I’m trying to get deeper into them all. I write here because I hope something I write along the way will help you too. I find great value in your comments and posts!

In the meantime, if you see me or know where I can find myself please let me know!

 lookingforchris69@gmail.com

 (FYI – I don’t check this e-mail unless you tell me you e-mailed in a blog comment)

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  1. Thanks for sharing, I know how deep, dark and painful that road is, and as we discussed, I’ll have some thoughts over at my blog shortly.

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  2. I am on a similar path. The depression crept up on me this year until it took over entirely. I am slowly getting better one day at a time. Not only am I searching for myself but at the same thing reinventing myself. As you know it takes a lot of work. Keep at it my friend and I really believe blogging is the best therapy of all 🙂

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  3. Hi Chris. I’ve seen you. I know where you are. My faith and my depression mix like oil and water. I do know that your willingness to be open and honest about your depression and your faith are two big steps toward healing. Thanks for your visit. God bless. Hope

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  4. Hey Chris, loved your Father’s Day post, even tweeted the link! A lot of tramatic events occurred in my life last year and to begin my healing process, I too turned to blogging. I want to follow your blog but cannot seem to find a follow me type button or sign-up… am I just blind this morning or is it hiding with Chris? Can you add one or point me in the right direction? Thanks! Be well, enjoy your journey, and remember, their is a reason why God is giving you this particular struggle… stay strong with him and you will learn His purpose.

    ☀ Memee

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    1. You must be fairly new to WP? your comment required approval. I’ve followed you so now hopefully you can follow as well. Please let me know if you have problems still.

      Thanks for reading and commenting!

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      1. Not too new to WordPress… been here 9 months. Whether I comment and whether that is approved, I have never come across that being a requirement to become a fan of someone’s blog before. Thanks for responding and I’ll go back and take a look.

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  5. I would like a Table of Contents. I find this site hard to navigate; the toolbar at the top doesn’t take me to a list of posts.

    FYI.

    HUG

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    1. Ya well, I keep signing up for blogging 101 through WPU, but then much like the plank challenge I just don’t do it.

      I agree I need to figure out some more technical stuff – I’ll be publishing # 50 tomorrow!!! Yikes!!!!

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      1. Congrats! I’m assuming that you haven’t told Marie about us. Hopefully, it will be like coming out, less painful than you imagine.

        HUGS

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    3. Cause what I really want to figure out is how to have favorite blogs-like Jules Rules for instance. I follow a LOT, but some I don’t always read, just sometimes. But there’s a few Chris doesn’t want to miss!! It makes him angry! We need a follow and a REALLY FOLLOW

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      1. I want a list of the last 5 or so blogs that I can click on, to catch up. Maybe I want too much. And that’s why I’m still single! 🙂

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  8. I’ll be on the lookout for chris…let me
    know if you find rachel. she’s been lost for almost 2 years now. here’s to the hunt and the journey and to finding us again! xo

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