Veteran’s Day in the wake of elections . . .

I’m reminded today and this week that I have served in the military under every Commander in Chief since Ronald Reagan. That’s five presidents so far and getting ready to be six. 

“To support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies. . . I take this obligation freely without any mental reservation.”

Enough said.

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Sunday Sundries

I came home yesterday afternoon and my wife, Marie, was watching TV and crying. “Where have you been?” She said. “The Notebook is on.” 

Secretly I was glad it was the last scene and didn’t have to watch it all. “I recorded it,” she announced.

. . . Later with a bottle of wine we watched it again.

Genesis 2:18 “It is not God for man to be alone.”

We find completion in life only as we love and are loved in return.Find someone to share your life with and love each other well. 

I’m back, not sure why?

I’m not sure why I’m here, but I am. I’m back on the blog and glad to be back . . . I think. 

It’s been almost a whole year since I’ve written anything – a year since I’ve been on WP at all. I got out of the hospital exactly a year ago. Seems like a dream from another world.

It wasn’t easy to get here. Looking For Chris has a unique password and a unique email with a different password. I couldn’t remember either so I had to go through a few layers of password to retrieval. All this to say I WANTED to get back in. It was a yearning of sorts that came on quickly, a thirst to be satisfied.

Why am I back? Why the yearning? I’m not sure to be honest.

I wanted to write I guess. I hope that’s a good thing, but I’m wary. I’ve been feeling good. My wife Marie and I are doing well. Our family is well. For the last several months signs of depression have been at bay. 

But the last few weeks I’ve been feeling it again. The lack of desire . . . for life, not wanting to do anything and not caring what happens. Maybe that’s why I’m back – crawling into myself again, feeling lonely for no reason, feeling insecure when things are going well.

I think I left to heal. I was feeling somewhat narcissistic and secretive in my approach. I hope this will be different. I hope now to write more for myself and less for others. I hope to find a “So What?” in what I write – helpful to me, maybe for you too. 

I’ll say it again, I’m wary, but here I am . . . nice to be with you all again. 🙂

Sex over Sexless

Seems like almost a complete comeback! That’s right fellow bloggers and sex enthusiasts it’s back! 

[This post is probably at least PG-13]

 I wrote a post earlier this Fall called Sexless in which I exposed my almost complete lack of libido for the last few years.

I have struggled with a couple of episodes of major depression during this time and the libido issue was certainly related. I had really almost no desire at all and this was adding to marital difficulties. I shared this concern repeatedly with my medical providers. 

Last month during a 5 week intensive in-patient program, I changed fro Prozac to Welbutrin and BAM! Almost immediately there was a change. 

During the first week I started getting erections again in the early mornings. This is a normal thing that happens to most guys daily. It had become a rare occurance for me. 

As the Prozac diminished (the doc said it takes about 6-8 weeks to be completely out of my system) my sex drive came back. 

I’ve been thinking again about making love to my wife while we are apart during the day and defiantly following through when we are together! She is pleased! 

  
I know we are not alone in struggling as a couple with lack of desire. There are many reasons for this to happen and we explored several including many blood tests for thyroid, testosterone, and other issues.

This is just one of many of the benefits I gained during treatment. So glad I chose hospitalization! 

Sunday Sundries: What is God Doing?

  
A continuation of last week’s Sunday Sundries: What is God doing here, and how can I be a part? 

God is always at work, always involved. We might not like that he lets things happen sometimes and I don’t want to get into good and evil in a Sundry post.

But know in the good, and in the bad, and in the indifferent He is at work. Changing YOU the believer to be more like Christ. 

“He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion” Philippians 1:6