A couple of days ago I sent an e-mail to a few close friends – guys who have impacted my life greatly. The response has been as I suspected from these brothers in Christ; overwhelmingly supportive!
I am reaching out to some of the most important people in my life. I am in a deep struggle and I need you.
Next week I am going into an inpatient treatment program for depression for probably 4-6 weeks.
You each have been such an important part of my life. Each of you I can truly say to you, “I love you.”
I know over the last few years you have tried to reach out to me, maybe you just wanted to catch up, or maybe you needed my help and I wasn’t there. I have been slowly shutting out the world and digging into a hole. I feel most days like I want to cry, but the tears simply won’t come. Most of the things I used to love in life I just don’t care about any more.
I am so thankful for my faith in our Lord! He really is the only thing I know is True. He is the One who gives me hope. That hope is in a great part because of you.
I know each of you are not perfect. But you are my friends and my brothers and I miss each of you every day! This is true – I think of you almost daily. I am blessed to count you as a friend in this life.
Pray for me, and for Marie – this has been just as hard on her I’m sure you can realize. I am hopeful going into this program. It is purely secular, so I am looking for God’s grace and truth to be buried deep – but there nonetheless.
Forgive me for my isolation, separation, and blatant ignoring of your calls, and emails over the last months and years. Please know I value our friendship, and I yearn for our fellowship.
I’m done keeping my life a secret, so please share (discriminately of course) as I covet your prayers and those of people who know me.
Grace and peace-
Nite to readers: In two days I’ll check myself into a 4-6 week in-patient depression treatment program. Fellow bloggers and prayer enthusiasts, I covet your prayers!!