Today is one of the worst days!
I’m lethargic, tired, moving slowly, foggy in the head (is there a real term for foggy in the head?).
I was supposed to be somewhere at 5:30 this morning (Army thing). I woke up at 4:30am and it was raining. I drank coffee and read some of my fellow bloggers’ creations then laid back down on the couch and went back to sleep.
Went to the office at 9:00 mostly ’cause I wanted to check email – was hoping for a specific couple of items, but nothing I cared about was there. I literally stared into space for about an hour and a half, laid on my floor and listened to Billy Joel and tried to sleep, but couldn’t, then got up and went to taco bell (yes this is all in the middle of the day!!)
Now, it’s 2:15 pm. I have no plan, sitting in my truck – trying to figure out what to do.
Depression is real. I’m glad I am trying to not drink, because I think this is one of those days I could drink a lot and just go to sleep. The drinking takes away the lost feelings for some reason. I hope I don’t drink anything. For some reason I don’t really want to today.
Depression is real…