I’ve started to write about drinking before, but it just seemed too serious. More serious than the marriage counseling or depression. So . . . I guess I’m not quite ready to admit I MIGHT have reached problem proportions with drinking. I’m talking alcohol here. But I will write about coffee too down below
- Do I drink alone? Yes, normally
- Do I hide it sometimes from others? Yes
- Did I wake up several months ago at 4am on a bench I sat on the night before to call a cab a 1/4 mile from the hotel? Yes. (I’m 45 years old – really?)
- Do I think about drinking every day? Yes ( do I drink every day? no. But I’d like to).
- What other questions do I need to ask myself?
I started the year not drinking – I knew I needed it. From Jan 2 to Super Bowl Sunday I made it. Who can watch the big game without tipping back a couple of cold beers – UnAmerican right?
Then it was Mexico in March – all inclusive hotel – I had actually negotiated that week into the deal back in December before I agreed with myself not to drink for the year. Interesting
After that, the plan just sort of fell to the wayside. I don’t drink every day. When I do I usually have about 3-4 drinks (whatever, I love beer, Cabernet, and bourbon, but I’ll drink triplesec from the bottle if that’s what we have.)
I also drink a LOT of coffee. About a pot before work. Then I hit the Kuerig about 3-5 times a day during the work day.
I’ve noticed when I drink I usually feel very bad the next day (does it seem a little crazy to swallow my Prozac at night with a cold beer?) I feel bad, not like guilty or hungover, but depressed like I’d rather lot be alive on that particular day. Sometimes I feel like crying (but I don’t). This seems to coincide with the day after I have had even a couple of drinks.
So fellow bloggers and delicious beverage enthusiasts. I QUIT!!
Tomorrow I’ll write about my savage caffeine headache!